Time for some real talk here guys. Fitness, health and a downwards spiral.
Warning: Serious content deflected with inappropriate use of low-res memes and gifs.
Who hasn’t been on a weight-loss or toning mission just once in their life? What girl doesn’t complain about their body? C’maaan, tell me something I haven’t already heard!
I have never been morbidly obsese or anything, but I do have my fair share of proportionate curves. I grew up with a very healthy and relaxed attitude towards food and ate what I wanted, when I wanted – resulting in natural portion control and good food choices. But come varsity, that dreaded First Year Spread got the better of me, and the yo-yo extremes began. It went from mild attempts to make changes, to every weird fad diet in the book and somewhere in between I got lost and disillusioned with healthy eating and exercise. Being uneducated and listening to every varsity girls’ quick fix fad, seriously sent me into a downwards spiral in my quest for thin, and I landed up on the troubling side of an eating issue.
I’m not shy to admit it, because I know I’m not alone. I know that a lot of gals (and guys) have dabbled with extremes and lost sight of the real purpose of getting fit and healthy. And that’s why I am sharing this post with you as I begin my fitness journey, yet again.
When I came back from India I had put on some weight and felt morbidly uncomfortable with myself. As a result, I started doing some serious research. I actively read books, talked to trainers and nutritionists and got myself to a point where I had a healthy understanding of food and fitness. Looking back at myself post India, I was tanned, healthy and glowing and should have been feeling fine as hell. This is just a reminder that the number on the scale is not an accurate reflection and that your perception of self can be so very far off from reality.
I’m proud to say that I lost that travel weight and I did it the healthy way. It was hard and consistent work but it got me this level of self acceptance and confidence – all because I did it the right way. The longer way, sure, but the way sans emotional turmoil and self loathing.
I guess I have been hesitant to fully throw myself into exercise and healthy eating again, although I’ve got it locked down for the most part. I just never want to revert back to that place where it’s an unhealthy obsession versus a positive lifestyle change.
I can confidently say that I love my pear shaped body, embrace my bootylicious booty and don’t want anyone else’s body other than my own God-given Corpus Corporis. I just want to make it the best it can be! But instead of my previous list of superficial motivations like “fit into short-shorts, make them stare” and other “thinspiration” bullshit, this is my new list of reasons why I want to get into better shape:
1. To age like I have permanent access to The Fountain Of Youth
2. To get dat asthma under control. Let’s leave “weezy” for Lil’ Wayne
3. To be flexible as fvck
4. To live to like, a hundred and three
5. To spend more time outdoors with Mama Nature and less time indoors, with Mama Kardashian
6. To not feel guilty about that unused Virgin Active contract. I keep getting emails asking why I don’t go. It’s not you. It’s me.
The people that helped me change my mindset when it comes to this lifestyle change are:
1. Casey Ho from Blogilates
2. Kris Carr from My Crazy Sexy Diet
3. Rosie from The Londoner and her “Anti-Diet”
4. Catherine from Rabbit Food For My Bunny Teeth
Basically I am just on a mission to give my glorious temple the love and care it needs and deserves. My colleague and friend, Lauren, has teamed up with me for personal training sessions, beach walks, fewer trips to our canteen’s sweet section and plenty of yoga and happiness. We’re all about the long term sustainability here people, as well as a few glasses of red wine and slices of carrot cake.
Not to worry, this isn’t going to turn into a fitness blog, (although last year I did start a picture blog of inspiring booties – click here for Dope Fitness). It’s just a pledge to myself and to anyone else on this journey, to do this the right way. To love myself, to care for myself and to kick some ass in between. We’re all at different levels and in different circumstances, but we’re all in this together.
Hit me up on firstname.lastname@example.org if you’re looking for walking buddies or just a moment of clarity. I am no expert by any means, just a girl up in the gym working on my fitness. You’re my witness. I’m Fergalicious.
In spirit of the work-out queen herself, I leave you with this track to add to your gym/running/personal playlist.
Jane Fonda – Mickey Avalon